Hey Me, how do you do?

When i realize, time passed and i am heading to my 24th birthday in this October, which means a year ahead i will be 25 years old. Old enough to be titled as an 'adult woman' which i don't really think i am ready for that. Inside myself i'm just a little girl who loves to spend my time doing things i like without really thinking about the future.

Future, huh? Myself now is the future of me back in my teenage time. It makes me feel uncomfortable thinking how different i am to the 'me' version which i was always dreaming about back then. I still remember how i wished myself would become a powerful, inspirational woman with a bunch of life achievements, but look at me now.. i don't really have anything to be proud of.

I mean, i'm really thankful because God has fulfilled my dream to married in such young age, i am proud of my marriage life, and about my academic life, my rate is also good. But, the teenager 'Dizi' was dreaming something bigger than that, i always wanted to be a person who is good at many fields I discovered myself as someone who loves to write, draw sketches, and cook, and i wanted to use this hobbies to produce something like a book, or at least having my blog full with updates regarding my sketches and recipes. I wasn't able to make that dream come true, unfortunately.

I am walking this path of my life just like a leaf blown by the wind, led by the fate, unwilling to change the direction. That is me now, how sad..

Do i still have that chance to change?