Looking back to one of posts in this blog, i realized i wrote something about 'normal' birthday celebration. It was on my 20th birthday i came to realize that my birthday is not the moment i could feel special, otherwise it can be sad to realize that you don't have that many friends who would congratulate you and send you gifts just like when you're younger.
Well, this year my birthday came on weekend, Saturday to be precise. I treated my family in a fancy AYCE restaurant, they also gave me gifts. That day just ended without i'm telling my friends thru social media that it was my birthday. As the result, no one greet me aside my family. It's not like i'm sad over this thing, i don't even really remember birthday of my friends either XD.
It is the truth, when you get older you have your circle small. You're not a treasure of many, you're just someone who's passing day by day, year by year, becoming some small fragments of this society. Sounds so dark, but really this is how i've become. An old cynical mother of two, lol.
Also, i feel like as i getting older i get so emotional easily especially when it's about my kids. I love them so much, i want to be there thru each day of their growth period. That's why lately i've been trying to eat healthy and exercise more. I want to have a healthy and long life so that i could watch my kids graduating from school, achieving their dreams and marrying someone they love. Hope me and husband can fulfill this dream of mine.
Also i'm now rethinking about my plan to relocate to japan. Whether i would take master degree as an oversea student, or maybe work in a company there. Both needed extra effort and dedication that i still lack of them. No easy way to your goals, right.
2021 will end in a blink, gotta look up on my new year resolution lists that mostly still unachieved, duh.
